End of SPinnovex

Have just ended SPinnovex not long ago. We have met a number of friends at SPinnovex. They are indeed very funny… Was abit sad to say goodbye with them but its ok… Hahaha… Only SPinnovex jiu like that liao then wad if graduation day? I think i will cry arh!! 😦

I think I’m going to continue my studies in NTU. I hope our diploma can be recognised by NTU quickly!! I want to go to engineering course de sia!! Civil Engineering is waiting for me ley… Stupid SMAE…

What is MARRIAGE?

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed – dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.– At least, in the eyes of our son— I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

A CHRIST-CENTERED MARRIAGE IS A MARRIAGE THAT IS SURE TO LAST A LIFETIME.

So then, they are no longer two but one flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate. Matthew 19:6.

By Stephanie Halmilton

I have read this thru facebook. I was wondering why my parents can ended up like that? Should I print it out and let my parents read? Haix. Should I? Should I actually do something to help them? I duno what to do actually. 😦

What Else Do You Want From Me?

Last month godma went to hospital.

This month grandfather went to hospital.

Family problem.

FYP problem.

Group arguments.

SUPER DUPER VEX!! And I still have to act nothing happen. So tiring.

What else do you want from me, god? What else do you want? Or how you want to torture me? Kill me instead!!! *I SEE U SEE I SEE U!!*

I’m Confused

I do not know whether to believe her or not. But why she still want to lie to us? I really duno why.

I Just Want To Be Strong

I just want to be strong. I want to earn more money for my dad to use. My dad was crying while driving car and I was crying alone in my room today. Then my sis and my mum just went to slp!! What the hell!! I feel really very sorry for my dad. My mum is a bitch. Maybe I shouldn’t call her that or maybe she isn’t but in my eyes she is!! She only know how to seduce guys. Talk to her friends she laugh and laugh. Talk to my dad she will give a black face. I really 看不去!! I hate her. I won’t give her money when I started to earn money. She thought she is that pretty so she can seduce guys. She is the one who started this “story”, she is the one who create this problem.

That pig went to cook my stuff which I want it for my breakfast tomorrow before work, and I said, “That was my food for tomorrow.”, and then she said, “I pay you back lar!” somemore in an angry tone. FUCK!! Then my mum come in my room and said let Cecilia eat cannot meh? Helloo that is my breakfast for tomorrow ley! Hell shit lar she. Only biased to Cecilia. Cecilia told my mum that I take her $25 and nvr use. Helloo I paid for the drinks and some of the KFC ley oni $1 left of course I keep lar!! Plus, Yvonne and Edmund each give $10 ley and all give it to that pig Cecilia lar. I dun even take one cent lar. I just nvr said this issue out and let them think that yes I took the $25. But just now my mum said I keep the $25, then I told her the truth!! And what she said is, “Aiya, I dun wan to care liao.” then I said, Yah you will oni care about your “guy”.” and she go silent.

What does that means? Did she really fall in love with the third party? I swear if they really divorce, I won’t give a cent for her after I went out to work. Unless I soft-hearted then I will give her. If not no way!!  

I want post it here, and I want everyone to know who bitchy is she. She is getting more and more suspicious. Today she secretly doing something behind the door then speak to her phone softly. Who is she talking to? Must be one of the IDIOT GUY LAR!! Who else!! Ghost arh? Must be a guy lar because my mum speak so softly, and talk for so long!! Who cares is she who give us more money? Yah I want money!! I will ask more money from her!!

I just hope my dad will come back soon. Daddy I was sorry to start all this no must be that Cecilia who created all this things!! If she at least tell me that can she cook my stuff and everything won’t be like this.

Missing U

I actually miss my primary school friends at Yishun. I miss Gladys and Li Zhi!! I miss them a lot but we lost contact liao. I always wanted to go back to North View Primary School and from there I hope I still rmb where Gladys live. Oh my god. I really really miss them. I think they also miss me. Hehehe…

I remember Li Zhi got mail me a letter, and I wanted to reply her letter but I do not know her address. She did not write her address on the letter itself nor the envelop itself. I was hoping she can mail to me again with her address, but no. No more letter been sent to me liao. 😦

I realised this is my 100 posts!! This post is specially for the both of them. I pray that I can see them again though we might not be that close again, I just hope to see them.

Pray pray pray…

Outing To SMUDGE Store

Ytd I went to … … JJ’s SMUDGE STORE!!! HAHAHAHA!!! I only bought a keychain and that keychain… actually I regretted buying it because the keychain just dun worth that price. I think that is the most expensive keychain that I have bought. Lolx… It cost me $40. Haix… Really regretted buying it lar. Wah lao… I should buy his shirt instead rather than that stupid keychain.

Then we went to eat chicken rice and beancurd near Dhoby Ghaut MRT for our dinner. That chicken rice store is very normal. I think my house de coffeeshop selling chicken rice is better lar. 😛

Raymond Lam Fung

LAM FUNG!!!!!!! Wah lao ehh!!!!! I’m getting mad over him!!!!! Can I make him my second hubby? Lolx… *I’m greedy*

I LOVE YOU!!! O hei fun nei!! O zhong yi nei!! O oi nei!!

I will support you till the end!!!

Projects

Chicken McNuggets!! This year we are sooo damn busy hor. FYP alrdy make me go mad and nervous because I scare I cannot finish in time lor or we are lack behind as compared to the other groups. Haix. Then my g… … Haix. Don’t want to say. Its like only about… …

Budgets still cannot give but I heard from Lim that he actually chop $2500 for us? But that isn’t the amount that we can really get because we still have to give him the quotations first. If too slow the money will be gone liao. *headache*

Still got ESRM… …

Still got RMES… …

Still got wad? Orh we juz hand in the Power Distribution PPT last week.

Dog Breeds Make Me Headache

Today I was amazed by a husky named Mishka. She can talk man!!! I was really shocked and amazed by her. If my Brise can say “I love you” to me, I think he can earn some money for me liao and most importantly, he will melt my heart.

Then I was so amazed by Mishka, I looked out for the dog breeds! I found toy poodle and pomeranian are so cute and lovable. They make me want to buy/adopt them home and give them loves and care. ❤

I think I’m going to buy one more puppy when I started to earn money. Now Brise is enough for me. Annual health checkup alrdy spent away about $200. When he was a puppy, I will always bring him to vet. Got choke by leash I brought him to see the veterinarian. Vomit I brought him to the vet. Stomachache oso brought him there. Hahaha… And when I got the money I will buy him good shampoo, good food, good birthday cake, good and nice perfume, good comb… aiya everything good, but now no money liao. So seldom bought him so many “good” stuffs liao.

I’m so headache. Duno wad breed to buy ley. Toy poodle is clever. Pomeranian is cute but abit noisy? Better than the Chi Hua Hua. Lolx… I want to buy a non-active dog coz I dun have time to bring them go out walk walk. I can oni give them lots of loves. 😛   Thats why when I said, “Go gaigai lor”, my brise will be soooo happy that he jump up and down and keep turning around (this means he is very excited and happy) coz he seldom go out walk walk.

Schnauzers also not bad. Golden retriever I got think of it before but HDB don’t allow plus have to bring him go walk walk almost everyday. Silky terrier arh. Cavalier King Charles arh. Westland terrier arh. Maltese arh. Shit man. Nono… Dun think anymore. Toy poodle and pomeranian is enough for me to choose from. Plus, I dun like those dogs tt are rare in Singapore coz to me they will have many problem that the vet in Singapore might not know? I suppose. Then Wad if my rare species dog got a special disease tt cannot be cure in Singapore? Oh no no… Maybe I think too much. HAHAHAHA!!